Hopelessness. Pure and utter hopelessness. That's what depression feels like. I never thought I'd ever experience this feeling.
I'm a very optimistic and energetic person. I'm actually one of those people who can accidentally drive others crazy because of my energy and perkiness.
I haven't been myself lately, though. I sleep a lot... In fact, all I want to do is sleep... I eat a lot whenever I actually eat, but I skip meals a lot because I don't feel like getting up and getting something... I live simply because my body is still functioning... I'm not really living, though. I look about me, and instead of seeing beauty, I see dreariness.... I try so hard to remember what it used to be like... I try so hard to transform my views... But I can't.
My glass is half-empty. It never was before! But it is now.
The only thing that gets me through is my faith. If I didn't know without a shadow of a doubt that this is God's will and that He will work it out well, I don't know what I would do...